quick note.

Life is good. That's all I can really say...things are DEFINITELY not "peachy keen" but they're barable...all is well. I've found by way back to God...so all is possible...♥

Effort.

Soooo! Lately, I've been lazy. #iconfess. No matter what is suggested of me or to me, I keep finding myself saying..."That takes effort." & I don't do it. Either I've been given everything in my life & never really had to work for anything...(has a bit of truth to it)...or I'm extremely lazy...(has a lot of bit of truth to it)...AND I just may NEVER make anything out of my life if I continue in this way of thinking/living...(truth).

I was in prayer last nite, & God made somethings quite clear for me. It doesn't take effort to walk away from Him, but it takes effort to stay away from Him...just as it takes effort to STAY with Him. So, which one just makes waaay more sense??!!

The reason it doesn't take effort to walk away is because we're turning back to the things that are "natural" for us. Sin is natural for us. It comes naturally, so it takes no effort...BUT it takes effort to continue in sin, when you know you need to get back to God. You FIND things to do...shows to watch...search for songs to listen to to keep you occupied...because you know what's up! & it's not that you're running from it...you're just not heading back to Him as of right now...

And without question, it DEFINITELY takes effort to stay with God...to keep trust'n Him, deny'n yourself, keep'n His commands, etc. EFFORT!! But which makes more sense?!?! I look'd up the word "effort" and a synonym for it was: struggle. haa! think it's a coincidence that the words effort and struggle are synonymous? Not at all. They go together...so put them together!! Put effort towards defeating what you struggle with & you'll win!!

Quick SN: God set your life up for you! Granted, He's allowed you to go through things that have produced your current struggles, BUT he PROMISED you that you win! He's gone before you and defeated the evil one & unarmed his imps and principalities...and has empowered you through His word to continue to defeat him......it's as if God said..."All you have to do is give a little effort; I did everything else." And we can't do that?! C'mon.........(really fussing at myself, but I know I'm not alone!)

But back to what we were talking about...I choose to put effort into staying with God than to put effort into staying away from Him.

God Bless Ya'll
♥

Mountain High.

Coming down from Mountain High

Temptations on every side

But I feel as though nothing alive can stop my stride...

Doused with a new frame of mind...

Moving freely.

Chains have been left behind.

Temptations try to follow me,

But my eyes are fixed on the prize!

No more will I fall by the wayside......

And as I drift down off my high

My laziness becomes magnified.

And I actually have to put effort into staying saved this time.

And you see, effort is not really my thing...

(Even though it's obviously the key

To failure or living successfully.)

Sigh...that gotta be the catch!

Because like the back of my hand, I know what happens next.

I battle...I lose...I fall.

Even though I know the scriptures...

Even know I memorized them all.

And it's not that I gave up.

It's that I rather cope, then fight.

I rather settle & to my surprise

My flesh never died.

But before I turn back, let me truthfully speak

Honestly, I appreciate everything you've done for me...

And humbly, I willingly pass up all the opportunities you've offered me

Because if the truth be told, I'm more comfortable pleasing me.

Then God spoke to me:

"You know how to be bound...

But you don't know how to be free.

You're searching for a comfort zone...

You don't know how to trust me.

You're contemplating a change of heart...

You don't know how to love me.

You don't know how to please me,

But you know how to hurt me."

Ouch. Hit home.

And I realize that I have to leave this cycle alone.

Effort, Pain & Humility is the key...

The key to living for you.

Same key you used to die for me.

So, I'll fight...

I'll fight for my life.

It's my choice.

And now that I'm free,

It's my right.

strategic.

Well...I can honestly begin by saying that I have no idea how this blog will turn out or what will be discussed...but I'll began by saying that I'm grateful for my life......my life has been waaay too...(searching for word)........(couldn't find one.) I've been thru a lot...(understatement). God had a plan for my life, but guess who else did??

Yep. Satan did.
Full blown out scheduled plan. Severely detailed. Most of it was obviously unveiled to me, (because I play'd right into it)...but what about the dangers, threats, & traps I couldn't see??....wow. What about the times I was severely tormented and couldn't even speak? or think clearly? or the times I was drunk and high...out of my mind...out driving?! i STILL don't know how I got home.......I was clearly warned in 1 Peter 1:13 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil is as a roaring lion, seeking whom he might devour."

Didn't listen.

What about the times where I purposely said in my heart that I WILL NOT OBEY aka "Doing Me". How about the relationships that I entered...the ones that required more of me...the ones I left God for. Yes, I've done it. Often. Took a stab at a lot of things...

Yet, I open my eyes day after day. I would love to ask why, but I rather take a minute to realize how important it is to yield my life over to God...it's gotta be a reason He kept me. I rather find the answer to that. Which will answer both questions...

Take a minute to think back...take a minute to look around and acknowledge. Only you know what COULD'VE possibly taken place & Satan's MANY attempts to demolish you...BUT GOD. #thinkonthat. #goodnite.

Don't Watse Your Life!...(please don't).

God is a merciful God. Everyday that you open your eyes, you have a choice to make...You can either choose to grow or waste the day. & when I say "grow", I mean become a better person. & when I say "watse the day", I don't mean sleep all day. You can fly half way around the world to complete your bucket list & still waste your day. I'm talk'n growing in God... not being content where you are, but striving to go higher.


It's extremely easy to not try & go on with your everyday routine of waking up, texting back whoever texted you, eating, showering, checking your facebook...twitter...hooking up with whoever, head back home, talk on the fone until you fall asleep...& do it all again the next day, week, month, year.......& then a year goes by and you look up & realize that you're still in the same place in your life as you were last year....that's not progress! That's not growing.

Like me, you've been given a dream and a vision that you're supposed to be working towards. You can have all the potential in the world, but you're a failure without effort! Faith without works is dead!!

Growing is a beautiful thing...it's along the lines of learning something new everyday! It's beautiful! Yielding to God at the top of your day is truly honoring Him...ask Him to show you what He wants you to see on that particular day...ask Him what it is that He wants to teach you...what does He want you to go to bed meditating on...what is it that He wants to reveal to you about yourself so that you can correct it. & before you know it, He will have molded, developed, and equipped you to take you even higher. It's an amazing process...amazing journey...but you have to be sober minded...& deny yourself. Your flesh will definitely try to rise & take over. The flesh HATES growth. Deny yourself.

We're on borrowed time anyway...you better seek God. We owe it to Him & so much more. Remember that! Don't waste your day...don't watse your life...

My search will not end...

Seems like I spent this whole life of mine
Searching & searching trying to find...
A life filled with love that You already gave
Because of the searching, it pulled me away...

Found all the heartache

Found all the pain

Found all the drama...

Found all the shame

But my search will not end.

No, my search will not end...

Until I find myself lost in you again♥

-Fred Hammond

Life is music & I don't wanna miss a beat!