Pearl.

Muthaaaa!♥

Hey girl! I miss you soooo much! Been think'n about you so much lately...it's been over a year now & I still can't get with the concept of you being gone...I just know I haven't seen you in a while...

Wow...I miss you...#sigh. I miss yu so much. & even though a lot is going on in life, I still remember all you taught me...

& even though every single temptation is alive & well here at school, I still remember the promise I made you...

Don't wanna make this long at all...just know that I love you. & your legacy is alive & well...& will continue on...

I named my car Pearl :) Papa gave me the BMW...& I couldn't think of a better name...we were in the guitar room talking after he gave it to me & was showing me his favorite guitar...& he named it Hattie Pearl♥

I remember the last time you were in the hospital...I didn't want to come, but they said I should...so I did. I came in the room...tried to be kool, but I threw a fit in the corner...because I knew....I knew I wouldn't have you too much longer with you...

& then when they put you on hospus, I knew...that huge family prayer we had in your room that night was vital for so many people! Because we knew...we knew we would have to step up be there for each other...we all knew.

I remember getting in trouble for coming in the house at 4 & 5 AM...because I didn't want to leave your bedside...I didn't realize how hard I was holding on until my Dad told me, "You can't make her stay...staying all night watching her sleep isn't going to make her stay"...#truthhurts.

Because I was DETERMINED TO MAKE YOU STAY! But I was being selfish...

I remember when I got that call that Saturday morning...

"Hey, Nishia...how are you? That's good...uhmm, are you by yourself? Ok, well, Mutha passed this morning.....Hello? Nishia?"

Yea.....I hated that call...your funeral was beautiful, but that last part......it tore me up...

Sorry to reflect so much...I just miss you. & my memories are all I have of you now...I miss you.

I want to end on a positive note, but all I can say is I miss you.....................................