Dear Little Cousins...

Dear Little Cousins,
I have no idea how many times a day I flip through your pictures...I miss ya'll so much. I now regret the times where my patients disappeared & I made ya'll shut up and go to sleep...haha...(sorry). Or the times I feel asleep on ya'll...lol. You've made coming home so rewarding and leaving quite hard...(especially Lauren with the many fits you threw). Missing birthdays was not kool at all...I pray that you'll forgive me. I pray that you'll understand. Ya'll put a smile on my face...one that lasts for days...& one that returns when you cross ma mind. Ya'll make me believe anything is possible...I mean if one of ya'll were to open your mouth & say, "Nishia? Can you bring me one of the pretty stars out of the sky?"...I couldn't bring myself to tell you no. & somehow, my concious wouldn't rest until I got it for you. Understand this: I'm only away so that God can develop me, so I can be the best I can be...in your life. I didn't have a listen'n ear as a child, but I promise that NONE of you will ever suffer from lack of an positive outlet...ever.

To be honest: my assignment can be a tad bit heavy, so sometimes I get lazy and want to give up...but guess wat keeps me goin?:the thought of one of you having tears in your eyes...looking hopeless...and me stand'd before you...helpless...it'll break ma heart in a thousand pieces...It's so many of ya'll, range'n from all ages...so let me take the time to apologize to all of ya'll. I apologize for not being there to make you laugh totake your mind off the painful teeth coming in...watch you take your first steps...stop'n by to hear what happened at school today...or being there fr your first games...not being able to correctly steer feelings for a lil "boyfriend" or "girlfriend"...or not be'n able to help you understand when mom or dad seemed impossible. It won't always be this way. Soon enough, I'll be around often. And even when I'm away, my phone waits for one of you to call me. Just be patient with me. I love you & care tremendously. It'll be extremely clear to you one day. Until then...be good.

-Big Cousin