Part Two.

So...when an issue arises, one of my first thoughts is "Where did this come from?" My pride comes from me being so broken, but choosing not to appear to be. But this time, I dug a little deeper...where did pride come from period?

The earliest story of pride that we have is of Lucifer...when he was an angel in Heaven. He had an important task...(to be God the Father's covering angel.) God was so AMAZING that the other angels in Heaven couldn't look DIRECTLY at Him. Instead they looked at Lucifer, who had all of these jewels built inside of Him to reflect God's glory. SO, when they looked at Lucifer, they saw God and began to worship Him.

Lucifer, of course, thought to himself, "Hmm...if you squint your eyes a bit, it kinda looks like they're bowing to me." And he went to work to see what that would actually feel like. He deceived a third of the angels, because of His pride. He wanted to be worshipped...he wanted attention, because he saw flaws within himself. Instead of embracing how God made him, he chose to want to do his own thing & not appear as the man he saw himself as. Instead of loving himself...he became prideful.

After thinking about this, I was a little blown away, but also disgusted. It's sickening how much of our nature is just like Satan's...

Worship is described as "adoring reverence and regard." #pride. Need I say more? My pride had gotten so bad, where I didn't see the flaws within myself anymore. I slick worship'd myself. My aunt once said, "Worship is not what you do when you come within the four walls. It's a lifestyle." & worship'n myself was my lifestyle. I put myself above all. My desires were above God's desires...and anybody else's for that matter!

When you do stuff like that, you know you're out of line. You know you're not striving to grow.& when you do stuff like that, what makes you all that different from the enemy?

Man, I'm really exploring the dangers of pride & I'm gonna keep sharing so that everyone won't have to go as far as I did.

Everyone sees flaws within themself...that's ok. That only makes you human. But turn to God! Humble yourself...admit that you're broken...ask for healing in that area. I guarantee He'll do it.

He's the ONLY way.