R.I.P. PRIDE

There's so much to pride...

You have the all out rebellious pride! "Do What Thou Wilt" kind of pride..."I answer to me!" kinda pride...

Now, I've been there before. Killed that! But pride has manifested itself in some more areas! In my relationships!

Especially the ungodly ones..I've been too prideful to let them go..."in case" I fall and need enablers to get into something...

But even my godly ones? Yea...I found pride there too...& you gotta watch that, cuz that kinda pride will have you milk'n your Goldy relationship for God, as opposed to going to him on your own. It'll have you depending on your brothers' and sisters' proverbs instead of get'n in your word yourself. You'll get your "fix" from just sit'n around talk'n about God...it's #allbad. & then you become dependent...

My pride almost damaged one of my relationships that I cherish the most...she spilled her heart out to me concerning how she cares for me...& a few hours later, I was back in the same neighborhood she had JUST snatched me from. Though, I heard her words in the back of my head, I had to decipher how that would play out in my decision making process.

Me...(personally)...didn't care, but I was moved that she cared so much! Still did my thing, because I didn't wanna feel like I was abstaining for anyone besides myself. #pride.

Storm out of the apt with a wet face...not thinking clearly...said I felt hopeless, because I couldn't see myself changing. #pride.

Walk'n around broken...barely make'n it, but I close my mouth...don't even let my closest ones close to me, because I FEEL like I should be past this point! #pride

Pride kills everything that has potential...it's growth's number one enemy! Either I'm gon live or die bruh...

I choose life!

So R.I.P. pride...

(moment of silence...)